Author Darlene J. Conard

Genesis chapter 14 voices the trouble Lot encountered during the conflict between the kings of the nations.

 After Abram (Abraham) received word of his brother’s distress, he immediately prepared to rescue him. He triumphed, restoring their possessions and the people to Sodom and Gomorrah. “Melchizedek, king of Salem, brought forth bread and wine; he was the priest of the Most High God and blessed Abram, saying, ‘Blessed be the Most High God, who has delivered your enemies into your hand.’ And Abram gave him tithes of all.” (Genesis 14:18-20)

After observing the situation unfold, the king approached Abram with a proposal: he suggested that they exchange the captured people for valuable goods. Abram’s response to the king was both profound and unbendable. He declared, “I have lifted my hand to the LORD, the Most High God, the possessor of heaven and earth. I vow that I will not take anything, not even a thread or a shoe latchet, from what belongs to you. I refuse to accept anything that is yours, lest you be able to claim, ‘I have made Abram rich.” This statement not only demonstrated his deep faith in God but also his desire to remain independent and not be indebted to anyone for his wealth or status.

God stands firmly with us in every struggle we face when we seek His presence. By lifting Him up and honoring His name, we invite a cascade of blessings into our lives. Amidst the enemy’s relentless efforts to dissuade us, we must remain steadfast and encouraged. A brighter, more inspiring vision is waiting just around the corner, ready to unfold before us. Genesis 15:22-24

And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for theit; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.” Habakkuk 2:2 KJV

I completely understand that the waiting period can be excruciatingly difficult. It often feels like the enemy is constantly hovering, trying to manipulate our thoughts and influence how we perceive our circumstances. But I urge you not to believe those descriptions! What truly matters is not just the outcome we see, but the invisible work God is doing behind the scenes.

He is actively rearranging situations and regaining control over the events of your life, all in your favor. Hold tightly to this promise and recite it frequently, letting it sink deep into your spirit.  When the enemy arrives, armed with his bag of lies, he will find that he has no power over you and will have to leave empty-handed!

Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, “This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts.”  Zechariah 4:6 KJV

Author Darlene J. Conard

The stillness of the night was weighty, with not a single sound breaking the silence. The absence of the usual chirping of frogs and the rhythmic chirring of crickets created an ambiance tailor-made for the voice of God to resonate through the air, calling out, “Samuel, Samuel.”

Many nights, it felt like hell had taken up residence in my home. The heaviness filled the atmosphere; thus, I had to recite God’s promises. But as always, I prevailed by the blood of Jesus. When the ordeal was over, I especially felt God’s presence. I felt purified within and had a clear conscience. I have come to understand that in life, certain circumstances and events are allowed by God to guide and push us toward our intended destiny. 

Tuesday night, in midsleep, the Lord’s voice stirred within my spirit. “Darlene, Darlene, wake up and arise. Read 1 Samuel 3. Who will answer the call?” As I lifted myself from my bed, the soft light of the moon filtering through the window, I made my way to my desk. With the Bible in hand, I immersed myself in the passage, absorbing each word until I received the revelational message that burned within me, filling me with inspiration and insight. I’ll share it.

“Ok, Lord, what do you want me to do? He was silent. The next day, a member of Glory Carriers informed us that they were organizing a trip for intercessors to come together and pray for our nation. It was an opportunity for people to join in prayer and seek the well-being of our country and the outpouring of His Spirit. “You need to be there,” she said. God made a way for me, but a part of me didn’t want to go. The Holy Spirit said, “Darlene, you are called to the frontline; sacrifices must be made, and your comfort and feelings must be set aside in the ministry. Will you answer the call?”

Well, this is a beginning, I thought. Several months ago, He said, “Get ready; change is coming.”

I think God will ensure we get where we need to go. We must be willing to answer the call. “When I gave my heart to God and was filled with the baptism of the Holy Ghost and fire, I gave my life to Him to do something with because my life was a total mess!

Deep within each of us lies untapped greatness, waiting to be revealed. Often, it takes a challenge from a higher power to bring out our best qualities. Surprisingly, even our adversaries can serve as instruments for us to gain wisdom, grit, and resilience.

One of my intercessors once said, “The most frightening act is to declare, ‘Here I am, Lord, send me.” We do not know where God is going to take us. Satan is going to try everything he can to discourage you. God has your back! You have His promises that all you need.

I encourage you, Beloved, to seek God and answer when He calls your name.

Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying,” Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.”   Isaiah 6:8 KJV

Author Darlene J. Conard

Every time we step towards connecting with God, we gain more knowledge and understanding. The act of desperately seeking God profoundly impacts every aspect of our lives. The feeling of desperation indicates that something has compelled us to yearn for a more profound knowledge of Him. As stated in Psalm 34:9, “The young lions do lack and suffer hunger: but they that seek the Lord shall not want any good thing.” This means that those who seek the Lord will not be deprived of anything good.

Encountering God has the power to transform us, leaving us forever changed, like trying on a new garment and emerging renewed by the experience.

In the Gospel of Matthew, specifically in verses 18-26 of chapter 9, there is a detailed account of a woman who had been suffering from a chronic illness characterized by an issue of blood. This passage describes her journey seeking healing, likely involving consultations with medical professionals and significant financial investment. The narrative also touches upon the universal experience of navigating through crowds, highlighting the frustration and pressure that often accompany such endeavors. The text prompts readers to consider the impact of their level of desperation on their determination to achieve their goals, posing the question: How far are you willing to go to attain what you desire?

“With my soul have I desired thee in the night; yea, with my spirit within me will I seek thee early” … Isaiah 26:9 KJV

Through the challenges I have faced, I have acquired valuable insights and wisdom. I have learned how to take these struggles and turn them into blessings, finding strength and growth in the process.

“For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”

Instead of trying to make sense of the struggles we face, let’s focus on embracing God’s promises. Instead of dwelling on the difficulties, seek solace in His presence and find strength and comfort there.

And he said, “My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest.” Exodus 33:14 KJV

“If we must “feel” God’s presence before we believe he is with us, we again reduce God to our ability to grasp him, making him an idol instead of acknowledging him as God.”     Author Craig S. Keener

Author Darlene J. Conard

In the serene ambiance of the neighborhood, a dove perched on a nearby tree, releasing melodious coos that resonated through the tranquil air. The gentle yet assertive breeze gracefully swept through the leaves, creating a soothing rustling sound that added to the peaceful atmosphere. The room was filled with the scent of frankincense and myrrh.  “Peace— finally, thank you, God!” I sobbed. My living room was bathed in the gentle glow of moonlight, creating a truly special atmosphere. I affectionately refer to it as God’s nightlight. The vision I just experienced was a sign that this particular spiritual war was over.  

After a month filled with intense spiritual battles and internal struggles, the unbridled storm finally subsided, bringing forth a profound transformation within me. “Perhaps you’re struggling to comprehend why certain circumstances are allowed by God to unfold. Every morning, my grandmother would wake up to a sign on her wall that read, “IF GOD BRINGS YOU TO IT, HE’LL BRING YOU THROUGH IT!” This powerful message served as a daily reminder that no matter the challenges one may face, there is always the strength to overcome them. In adversity, faith can provide the strength to overcome challenges.

I’m excited to continue sharing my personal transformation journey. Imagine a butterfly to illustrate this process; transformation doesn’t happen overnight. Initially, the butterfly starts as a humble caterpillar and then goes through a seclusion period within a cocoon. It struggles to break free from this protective shell when the time is right, eventually evolving as a stunning butterfly. This slow and challenging process is a powerful symbol of personal growth and transformation in our lives. The process of a butterfly emerging from its cocoon and struggling to spread its wings is crucial for its finale. The effort strengthens the butterfly’s muscles, pumps fluids into its wings, and prepares it for flight. This struggle is essential to the butterfly’s transformation and eventual ability to start its journey.

Hebrews 10:35-36 says, “Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.”  KJV

Stand firm and know that God’s got you! You have a journey with Jesus that awaits you!

   Author Darlene Juanita Conard

“Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.”  Psalm 19:14 KJV

“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me” is an understatement.

In the book of Matthew, chapter 12, verse 37, Jesus imparts sincerity about the potency of our words, proclaiming, “For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.” This serves as a compelling reminder of our speech’s profound impact on both ourselves and those in our midst. It emphasizes the weight of every utterance, as they can yield favorable or adverse consequences.

The concept is deeply rooted in the profound symbolism of the breath that we speak with, which mirrors the breath of life given to us, as described in Genesis 2:7. This connection highlights the significance and responsibility accompanying our spoken words, shaping our interactions and relationships.

Take a moment to imagine the power of speaking positively and declaring God’s promises. It has the potential to bring about transformation. Not only does it initiate healing within us and others, but it also can shift circumstances in our favor.

Seek God’s guidance to fill your heart with peace and bring restoration. His divine influence can help us control our speech and use it for positive and healing purposes.

“He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction.”  Proverbs 13:3 KJV

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Author Darlene J Conard

As I stand amidst the clutter in my utility room, I’m filled with a mix of reluctance and determination. “I know I need to, but I don’t want to,” I mutter to myself. This is the part where I earnestly say, “The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing!” As I pull everything out, I realize that what may seem like junk to me could be a treasure for someone else. My foyer, by the time I’m done dragging everything out, is going to look like a hoarder’s paradise. Dust will settle on another few inches of dust, making my apartment look like the sweeper blew up. The task of creating a path to and from rooms by digging through the clutter is a real pain! I find myself wondering how long it will take to neatly organize all of my belongings, from clothes to books and everything in between.

Chaos creates an overwhelming atmosphere.  So much truth is in that!

What if I told you that chaos is a tool for God? “No, He isn’t the author of confusion.

(1 Corinthians 14:33 KJV) He works in it.

In the book of Esther, Haman’s lust for power drove him to deceive the king. All it took was the right strategy since he was the king’s righthand man, no problem! “Here is the plan. I’ll convince King Ahasuerus that the Jews are enemies.” Mordecai knew Esther was in the right place at the right time. He depended on his niece, whom he raised as his own, to intercede on their behalf.  (Read the book of Esther)

Arrogance led Haman straight into the very snare he built for Mordecai. Chaos ceased in God’s time. Israel was spared.

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Jesus, upon entering Bethsaida, encountered a blind man in need of a miracle. “Touch him, my Lord,” the people urged. (Mark 8:22-20) First, He touched the man’s eyes with His spit and asked, “What do you see?” The blind man looked up and replied, “I see men as trees, walking.” At first, he didn’t truly see. Have you ever had your eyes examined? Sometimes drops are put in your eyes to dilate them. It can be overwhelming to want to see clearly. The second time, Jesus placed His hands upon the man’s eyes. His vision was restored as if he had always been able to see. Chaos only lasted for a moment, then, by the touch of the Master’s hands, order was restored.

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”   Romans 8:28 KJV

“God has the power to restore order to things that are chaotic. Before doing so, everything must be disorganized and misplaced. But there’s no need to fret, as He has already paved the way for this restoration. “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path.” (Psalms 119:105 KJV)

Our natural sight betrays us. Focus on what God said He would do.  “I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go. I will guide thee with mine eye.” (Psalm 32:8 KJV) His eye is our compass. It says eye. “The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.”  Single vision is a term that throws me in a loop when ordering glasses online. It taught me something valuable, though. The two lenses are created for optical correction for a single distance, meaning only one. Focus is one way, not two, three, or four. Jesus says, “But if thine eye is evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness; how great is that darkness!”  Proverbs says, ^“Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.”  To have an open vision, we mustn’t be blinded by our circumstances and believe in a physical manifestation of God’s order.

I have a remarkable uncle who is visually impaired, yet possesses the incredible ability to count money with precision. Despite his blindness, he takes pleasure in “watching” TV and experiencing “sightseeing” by vividly imagining them in his mind. When it comes to counting change, he relies on his acute memory for the unique characteristics of coins, such as their size, texture, and engravings, running his fingers over them to discern their value. His resilience and wisdom have been invaluable, teaching me the profound lesson of navigating life with unwavering faith rather than relying solely on what meets the eye.

“The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision.”

                                             Helen Keller

Hold on to the vision that God has given you!

Author Darlene J Conard

The amber sun, with its stunning display of colors, gracefully faded as night descended, leaving behind a lingering glow that outlined the majestic mountains of Jerusalem. The disciples, visibly saddened, dropped their heads in a moment of heavy silence. Their faces reflected a mix of confusion and grief as they tried to comprehend the turn of events. Judas, one of their own, walked among them, his footsteps echoing a sense of betrayal as he had made the fateful decision to betray Jesus in exchange for thirty pieces of silver. While Peter denies Jesus, slicing the soldier’s ear off, Jesus unhesitant picks it up and heals it into place—wailing bursts from the throats of the passionately dedicated followers at the crucifixion. The earth trembled as the ground split open, seemingly reaching out to accept the blood of Jesus. The skies darkened and violent tremors shook both heaven and earth, as if nature itself was mourning the event. What happened? Slumber won with its cumbering embrace. “Yet a little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to sleep: So shall thy poverty come as one that travelleth; and thy want as an armed man.” (Proverbs 24:33-34)

At the break of dawn, as the rooster’s crow pierced the silence, a haunting realization washed over Peter. The words of Jesus, spoken to him just hours earlier, echoed in his mind with relentless clarity. “Truly I say to you, that this night before the cock crows you’ll deny me three times.” The weight of those words bore down on Peter, stirring a tumult of emotions within him as he grappled with the impending fulfillment of Jesus’ prophecy. (Matthew 26:34)

The words of Jesus flowed from their hearts as they sat in astonishment. It seemed like hopelessness had gained the advantage.

“The LORD of hosts hath sworn, saying, Surely as I have thought, so shall it come to pass; and as I have purposed, so shall it stand,” … Isaiah 14:24

How often have we found ourselves wondering how many times we have asked the Lord for guidance? I’ll admit, I’ve certainly done it countless times!

He fearlessly faced death and triumphed over the depths of hell, emerging victorious against all odds.(Read Mark 16)

“Writing is my passion! This is how I envision the aftermath of the crucifixion. The greatest thing about the Bible is that everyone’s life story is written in it. Have you denied Jesus out of pressure? Are you lost, confused, and alone? Abused, physically or mentally, whatever state we find ourselves in, Jesus’ cords, mercy, grace, and compassion will reach beneath us, pulling us out if we accept it. “In my distress I cried unto the Lord, and he heard me.” Psalm 120 KJV

The Author sat them down to explain, “This will happen. You need to be prepared.” Like so many of us, we hear, however, don’t understand what God is going to do, what He says he’s going to do.

These words are not merely tales; they serve as guiding lights to navigate life’s various challenges. No matter the circumstance you encounter, the teachings found in the Word of God offer wisdom and guidance to guide you.

Author Darlene Conard

I have often found myself in Gideon’s position, imploring, “If this is You, Lord, give me another sign!” When the first answer didn’t satisfy me, I would ask again. I pondered why I am this way and searched my life intently. “Where is the broken thread in the garment that would unravel the whole thing? Where within the depths of my soul is this uneven yoke?

 When the loose thread of the fabric is tugged, it loosens the whole piece in the garment, revealing the intricate stitching and delicate patterns. I need to discover the origin of this unraveling, to untangle myself from the chaos and start anew, perhaps with a fresh piece of fabric and a new design.”

“Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. (Proverbs 22:6) Teach children how they should live, guiding them to make positive choices and develop a strong sense of self-worth. When a child is consistently exposed to negative beliefs about themselves, it’s like planting a weed in their mind that gradually takes over, stifling their potential and preventing positive growth.

Weeds quickly conquer soil, taking space. Think about it. For good seeds to flourish, weeds have to be uprooted completely. Grandma loved gardening. Helping alongside her, I’d pull weeds out but lay them on the ground. “No, put them in the wheelbarrow to be hauled away.” It made plenty of sense. She explained that weeds could still take root although they were uprooted. Eventually, it would choke out the good seeds planted.

Reflecting on my spiritual journey, I have prayed for God to delve into the depths of my heart, soul, and mind. My earnest plea is for Him to remove anything within me that does not align with His will. When He begins this transformative work, it feels as though a single thread being pulled unravels my entire being. In these moments, I realize how incomplete my self-awareness truly is until I face challenges. My ultimate ambition is to emulate the qualities of Christ in every aspect of my life.

Going back to finding that single thread Matthew 9:16 says,” “No man putteth a piece of new cloth unto an old garment, for that which is put in to fill it up taketh from the garment, and the rent is made worse.” Picture your most stunning outfit and envision it torn and patched with oil-stained rags, diminishing its beauty.

“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.” (Psalm 51:6 KJV)

“Explore the depths of my heart, O Lord, for I know it may harbor unknowing impurities. Restore my spirit, Lord, for life’s burdens have depleted it. Grant me this, Lord , so I may attain purity and sanctity within.”

Gideon grappled with the belief that he was not the chosen one to confront the Midianites. The verse “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he” (Proverbs 23:7 KJV) weighed heavily on his mind. God seemed to unravel the misfitted pattern by pulling a loose thread, revealing the false identity that family members had planted.

“But the Lord said unto Samuel, “Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.  (1 Samuel 16:7 KJV)

As a messenger of God, I am reminded of the redeeming power of His love towards all. Let us always strive to perceive ourselves through the lens of God’s unconditional love and not through the judgmental eyes of society. I am deeply grateful for the immense mercy extended to me, and I recognize the continuous need for the Lord’s merciful presence in my life.

“Wherefore comfort yourselves together, and edify one  another, even as also ye do.”  1 Thessalonians 5:11 KJV

Author Darlene J. Conard

Beneath my feet lay pieces of broken toys. A wheel here, a marred block there, and a few pieces from a torn doll indicated that children actively played. If those toys had feelings, I could relate to their brokenness. I’m sure all of us could!

I find immense inspiration in watching the series called The Chosen. The series beautifully depicts the imperfections of the disciples, portraying them as short-tempered, hungry, tempted, angry, argumentative, and filled with self-doubt. In a particular episode, Mary Magdalene succumbs to temptation when a demoniac begins to remind her of her troubled past. She listens intently as he cruelly recalls the depths of her past sins, causing shame to overwhelm her. Mary finds herself revisiting her old haunts and falling back into her previous destructive habits.

After Jesus sends several disciples out to look for her, Matthew and Peter finally find her sitting in an alley. They plead with her to come back. “He already fixed me once,” she replied. Matthew’s response to her is unforgettable: “He can fix you again.” The scene really struck a chord within me, making me feel like I have asked God to forgive me a thousand times. I’m tired of hurting, struggling, and taking unknowing steps that end in disaster. I’m tired of questioning why I’m always seen as the enemy when I’ve tried to help by praying, encouraging, and doing good things. Isn’t that what Christians do? I’m tired and broken, and I don’t want to hurt anymore. Brokenness isn’t pleasant in the least.

Getting back to those broken toys most would throw them in the trash.  Some have dedicated themselves to restoring them. “I’ll take time to clean them thoroughly, examine parts, replace brokenness with new, mend torn pieces with needle and thread, whatever it takes.

Hours upon hours, even days, have been poured into restoration. Evidence of its battered state is no longer present, yet its uniqueness is preserved.  

“God, that’s exactly what You do! Devastation rushes in with its hands, pulling, rending us, and leaving scars. You don’t throw us away as some do.” It’s true, He fixed us once, but it won’t be the last. Restoration isn’t beyond Him.

“For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the LORD; because they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.” (Jeremiah 30:17 KJV) This is one of many scriptures of God’s restoring power.

Isaiah 42:9 is a promise, “Behold, the former things have come to pass, and new things I now declare; before they spring forth I tell you of them.” Seek Him with all your heart, mind, and soul. Talk, cry out to Him plow through your brokenness. He will hear and answer. Yes, beloved, it will take time; however, you will be restored. The reasons behind toy restorers are the same. “Someone saw my worth.”

I have experienced numerous challenges and setbacks in my life, but each time, I have found the strength to overcome them with the help of my faith in God. His restorative power has been a source of resilience and hope for me, allowing me to heal and grow stronger after every trial. I have been broken many times, but God has restored me every time.