Author Darlene J. Conard

The pangs of longing deepen, coursing like electric surges through the very essence of the soul. A heart, fractured and bleeding, is an undeniable truth, as palpable as the bright light of day. This reality resonates within us all.

In the early days of my spiritual journey, I was completely unaware of the profound truths about God that would eventually transform my life. I vividly recall the moment my grandmother gently encouraged me, saying, “Talk to God, He will speak to you.” Her words resonated deeply within me, sparking a curiosity I had never known before. Since that pivotal moment in 2001, I have immersed myself in learning about the one and only True God, discovering a wealth of insights and wisdom that have guided my faith and understanding.

The one thing that threw me off is, why is it that the harder I pray for God to use me for His glory, the more I experienced what felt like hell on earth, emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally?  God, I’m praying to be used by You, but I’m dealing with rejection in the church, rejection by my family who are in the church, and sickness on top of it. I felt a void, although God never left me, a terrible, uncomfortable void swallowed whole, every ounce of security that I once held tight to.

Feeling a profound sense of emptiness can be incredibly unsettling. It’s as if a void has settled within, leaving a stark absence where joy and fulfillment once resided. This haunting feeling creates an unsettling weight, making the world seem dull and lifeless, as if colors have faded and sounds have hushed. The discomfort of this emptiness lingers, gnawing at the edges of one’s consciousness, yearning for something to fill the space that feels so achingly vacant. I just said it, something to feel the space. There is a reason for that!

Unknowingly, I leaned heavily on my understanding, drawing from everything I had ever known as a means of survival. Yet, that sense of familiarity was abruptly consumed by a vast void, a deep chasm that seemed to grasp everything I held dear. It was then that I realized this emptiness served a greater purpose; it was God’s way of preparing a transformation within Darlene, one that would nurture and sustain her for eternity. In His divine wisdom, God often utilizes the void, that intangible nothingness, to breathe life into something entirely new, crafting a reality that transcends our understanding.

In conclusion, we will occasionally encounter a profound emptiness, a feeling of being stripped of everything we hold dear. This emptiness serves a divine purpose, as it allows God to speak into our lives, saying, “Let there be greater faith. Allow this vessel of mine to thrive and blossom within the very void that seems overwhelming, so that I may illuminate the darkness through them.” In these moments of absence, God does His greatest work.

“He must increase, but I must decrease.” John 3:30 KJV

Feel free to forward it to anyone you wish.  My mission is to encourage everyone to follow our Lord Jesus Christ with all their heart, soul, mind, and strength. ©Darlene J. Conard Vision Ministries 2024.   This may not be republished or used without the author’s written consent. The photograph is AI-generated. Darlene J. Conard is also affiliated with Glory Carrier Ministries.

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