Author Darlene J. Conard

Nothing about my life is normal; the traditional path that most people consider “normal” is foreign to me.

Each day unfolds in unexpected ways, and now I’ve come to terms with the fact that this unusual existence isn’t just a phase—it’s a permanent piece of my reality. When I became a born-again Christian, embracing this truth was daunting since I couldn’t believe God could use a flawed Darlene. But I’ve learned to accept it wholeheartedly. This acceptance brings a sense of inner peace to me. I understand that the supernatural is intertwined with my daily existence, shaping my experiences and choices in ways I couldn’t have imagined. It’s no longer a source of fear or confusion; it’s a deep and vital part of who I am. Someone asked me, “How does one become a prophet or prophetess?”

“We aren’t made but born, and then we are shaped by the Master.”  Jeremiah 1:5 says, “Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.” (KJV)

Yesterday, my mom and I had a heartfelt conversation about my early beginnings. She shared a frightening moment when she almost miscarried me during her pregnancy.  Then, just three months after my birth, I faced another battle: I contracted pneumonia at three months old. The doctors were understandably concerned, worried I might not pull through. Those early challenges were only the beginning of my journey; they marked the first of many fights I would have against the shadows of death.

My walk with God has given me clarity about why witchcraft, violence, and emotional turmoil were present in my previous life. Satan possesses a deep understanding of our callings and true identities more clearly than we do ourselves. He is aware of our potential and the divine purpose we are meant to fulfill, often using this insight to create obstacles that can distract or deter us from our path.

No matter what roles or tasks we are assigned to serve the kingdom of God, we will inevitably face challenges. This particular season has been incredibly enlightening, revealing insights and lessons I had not previously grasped. It has shown me the importance of resilience and faith in navigating new obstacles and how these experiences can deepen our understanding and commitment to our calling.

Every day, we should take a moment to earnestly pray for discernment, asking for clarity to see situations for what they are. We ask for God’s guidance to attain consistent results.

In this journey, let us also invite God’s counsel into every decision, trusting His wisdom will illuminate our path and bring peace to our hearts among life’s uncertainties.

I was born for this and so were you!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” Jeremiah 29:11 KJV

Author Darlene J. Conard

“Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.”  Psalm 23:5 KJV

Experiencing victory is incredible, particularly when we acknowledge God’s presence in it! Just yesterday, I gathered with my dedicated intercessor friends to pray for our nation for that pivotal moment.

As we united, pouring our hearts out in prayer, we felt an overwhelming sense of peace envelop us. The weight of uncertainty disappeared, and we were reminded of the strength and hope that faith can bring. Each of us shared our thoughts and concerns, and through our collective prayers, we found reassurance in knowing that God is a promise keeper, and through Him we had won all battles.

At that moment, I had not fully grasped the deep significance of God preparing a table before us in front of our adversaries.

 This feast celebrates victory and marks our victory over our enemies. The sound of laughter, music, shouting, clapping, dancing, and testimony traveled in the air for other adversaries to behold.

This scene reflects a decisive moment of divine establishment and protection, where, despite the challenges and opposition we face, we are invited to revel in the abundance and favor that comes from God. It serves as a reminder that even amid struggle, there is a sacred space for us to experience joy and victory.

I encourage you to take a moment to reach out to God in prayer and ask Him to prepare that victorious feast for you. Remember, He has already secured this victory on your behalf, and it is a celebration waiting to be enjoyed. Open your heart to His blessings, and let this promised feast remind you of the triumphs He has in store for you!

Author Darlene J. Conard

I wasn’t sure what to expect from the weekend ahead, but the words of a seasoned prophetess echoed in my thoughts. She had reached out to me with an intensity that I couldn’t ignore. She stressed how vital it was for me to attend their gathering, describing it as an opportunity not to be missed, “I feel God’s going to do something.” Her faith intrigued me and planted a seed of hope, making me wonder what revelations or connections awaited me at that meeting. I wasn’t used to being used and needed, and I dismissed God using me in no other way but to pray. She felt the urgency for me to be at the meeting so sternly that she paid for me a motel room.

 I love people. At one time, I wasn’t a people person at all. But God, I’m so weary! I’m so tired that I don’t want to fight anymore. This has been my battle for years.

I started to venture out and connect with people beyond the walls of what I had always thought of as a church. I was eager to explore new friendships and experiences, seeking connections beyond my previous surroundings and familiar rituals and routines. But a spiritual residue had accumulated from all the hurt over the years. One can only take so much; God knows that. The most devastating thing is that the church hurt, especially since it became a constant thing. I sought refuge in this place, hoping it would offer me a momentary escape from the chaos and cruelty of the world outside, a sanctuary from the everyday struggles that weigh heavily on my heart. Yet, to my dismay, I now find myself confronted with the harsh realities I wanted to flee, right here in the last place I expected: the church. The walls meant to provide solace seem to echo with the same burdens I hoped to leave behind, pulling me back into the turmoil I yearned to escape.

I want to share with you what awaited me behind this door.

A wave of uncertainty washed over me as I sat in quiet observation. I was taken by surprise when my name was called to come to the front of the church. It was a moment I hadn’t anticipated. For as long as I could remember, I had been a quiet observer, seated in the pews as others received powerful prophetic words that spoke directly to their lives, offering them guidance and hope. My heart raced as I walked forward. The warmth of the congregation’s attention wrapped around me like a blanket, and I couldn’t help but wonder what message awaited me. It was an unexpected experience, standing in the spotlight of a body of prophets, prophetesses, ministers and children that usually felt so distant.

As the lady beckoned me forward, flanked by two others, an atmosphere of reverence enveloped us. She began to pray fervently, her voice steady yet filled with emotion, sharing intimate truths that only God could possibly know. The words she spoke pierced through my heart, resonating deeply within my spirit. In that profound moment, a pivotal question emerged: “Will you answer the call?”

Tears streamed down my face, flowing freely, as I was enveloped by an indescribable and overwhelming surge of God’s presence. It felt like a powerful current, wrapping around me like a warm blanket on a cold day. The weight of my emotions became almost tangible, filling the space around me with a sense of profound peace and invincible strength.

As I stood there, choked with emotion, I found my voice rising above the noise of my thoughts. “Yes—yes, Lord, I will answer the call!” I exclaimed, my heart racing with a mix of fear and excitement. One of the intercessors placed her hand on my shoulder and prayed fervently that I would possess the boldness of a lion—a courage that could conquer any challenge ahead.

The group of intercessors circled around me, their voices a harmonious blend of encouragement and determination. They lifted me in prayer, urging me not to give up, no matter the obstacles that lay in my path. I closed my eyes, wanting to hold onto this sacred moment forever, feeling utterly safe in the tender embrace of God. Time seemed to stand still, and in that divine space, I knew I was exactly where I was meant to be.

This experience has profoundly changed me, shaping my identity in ways I never imagined possible. The Darlene who existed before this journey feels like a distant memory, replaced by someone who has gained resilience and a deeper understanding of herself In Jesus. After years of longing and searching for a moment like this, I can confidently say that it has finally arrived, and I am embracing it with open arms. I no longer feel the weight of shame regarding my experiences; instead, I view them as a testament to my strength and growth. I am eager to share my story, not only to honor my journey but also to inspire others who may be facing their own challenges.

“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee    Psalm 51:10-12 KJV

Author Darlene J. Conard

Last night during prayer, I witnessed a powerful vision that filled me with awe—a majestic bald eagle gracefully lifting itself into the sky after resting on a smooth rock splashed by water. Behind the eagle, a stunning waterfall thundered down, its crystal-clear water sparkling in the sunlight and releasing a refreshing scent of new beginnings. The eagle had just emerged from the water’s cool embrace, its feathers glistening like diamonds.

As the great bird soared higher, its magnificent wings spread wide, and water droplets cascaded from its feathers, showering the vibrant land below. This was no ordinary landscape; it was the heart of America, alive with promise and potential.

God proclaimed, “The majestic eagle that you behold symbolizes the essence of true freedom, soaring high above the constraints of the world below. The water that gracefully cascades from its powerful wings symbolizes a profound outpouring of My Spirit, showering blessings and renewal upon this great nation. Do not let fear take hold of your heart! Just as I performed miraculous wonders for My people during their liberation from the bondage of Egypt, I am now preparing to unveil extraordinary signs and wonders among you that will inspire hope and ignite faith. Trust in My promises, for I am with you.”

God is getting ready to reveal His power unlike we’ve ever seen. I have felt a surge in the atmosphere.

God has heard His people’s prayer for restoration.

“And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy:” Joel 2:17-18 KJV.

This is that time.

Be patient therefore, brethren, unto the coming of the Lord. Behold, the husbandman waiteth for the precious fruit of the earth, and hath long patience for it, until he receive the early and latter rain. James 5:7 KJV

Get ready for the rain is coming and nothing can stop it!

Author Darlene J. Conard

From the very foundation of the earth, a mesmerizing spark of amber light unfurled in graceful, circular motions as though it were playfully chasing its tail. Wisping sounds traveled in the air as the flames grew, forming a magnificent fire pillar towering over me. The sight was truly breathtaking. “I did this for the children of Israel. I will do this for you; I will show my wonders.” Although the Lord spoke in a soft voice, it was magnified. His Words echoed, ushering me from a deep slumber into an awakening.

God’s counsel commenced by exploring our tendency to underestimate His immense power and greatness, especially when confronted with challenging or overwhelming circumstances. It is easy to become consumed by our present struggles and to lose sight of the limitlessness of His strength and majesty. In moments of difficulty, we often forget that His capabilities far exceed our challenges, leading us to a diminished view of His divine influence in our lives. This reflection encourages us to recognize and acknowledge the full scope of His greatness, even when times are tough. “If I could only get my emotions out of the way, I’d be fine,” I confessed to another intercessor. She reminded me that we are human.

God’s counsel and instruction are not to condemn us but to perfect and protect us. He is getting us ready for the more significant things.

The children of Israel remained stuck in the wilderness for forty-one years! I want to move on so that God can do what He needs to do in my life. I don’t want to miss out on anything that God is doing!

Take a moment to visualize this: When you’re at a game, your undivided attention is on your team or a beloved individual participating. Everything else becomes a hazy backdrop. But —if your focus shifts to the background, you risk missing out on the enjoyment of the game or the presence of those you cherish. The hazy backdrop becomes the focus; now, what’s vital is a blur.

God is taking care of things. The enemy will throw obstacles in our path to divert our focus from what God has assigned us to do.

The atmosphere is intensely charged as God prepares us for more excellent times.

“Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.” (Isaiah 43:18-19 KJV)

The things we were once accustomed to will soon be distant memories as God sets a transformative new era into motion. He has intentionally disrupted our familiar patterns and routines to compel us to step beyond our comfort zones and embrace the beautiful changes ahead.

Author Darlene J. Conard

“Answered prayer becomes the rule and not the exception for those who abide in Christ and are immersed in His Word.”    – Jennifer Eivaz –

Sitting in my living room and peering into the all-consuming darkness, I contemplated the biblical text I had recently immersed myself in. It struck me how every victory in the text stemmed from unwavering trust in God. I was drawn to the stories of young leaders like Josiah, who ascended to kingship at the tender age of eight, and Samuel, who obediently heeded the voice of God as a simple boy. Conversely, the account of Joseph, Jacob’s son, induced a deep sense of injustice, as his brothers robbed him of thirty-one precious years and deprived him of his mother’s comforting presence. Despite the unfairness, I found comfort in the promise of uncovering the unfolding of Joseph’s life in Egypt, as depicted in Genesis, chapter 39.

Deborah, a remarkable figure, served as a prophetess and a judge of Israel. I realized that the most minor aspects of their lives hinged on their obedience to God’s guidance. The contrast between human imperfection and God’s persistent call to share in His glory never fails to captivate me, drawing me closer to the text and its teachings. Judges 4

Our spiritual growth is involvedly tied to the challenges we face. Through these trials, our faith is tested and strengthened, leading to a deeper understanding of God’s guidance and our spiritual journey.

“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.” Matthew 7:7-8 KJV

The journey of faith is not without its moments of discouragement. Yet, it is in these moments that our unwavering resolve is most crucial. We must hold fast to our trust in God’s plan, knowing He is always with us, guiding us through every trial.

These scriptures deeply resonate with me. They remind us that some prayers are answered swiftly, while others require patience. The passage from 2 Corinthians 1:20 reassures us, ‘For all the promises of God in him are yes, and in him Amen, to the glory of God by us.’ It’s a reminder that we must not give up but continue to seek His guidance and delve deeper into His word. Our persistent knocking symbolizes our perseverance; we actively participate in our spiritual growth through this act. The door will open in His time and never be shut again.

As we persist with unwavering determination, we will navigate the transition into the next phase of our lives. In the face of challenges, let us not yield to despair. Instead, let us confront and overcome Satan’s deceitful tactics with fervor and wholeheartedly embrace the inheritance that is destined for us.

“And he spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint” Luke 18:1 (KJV)

Let’s persevere in prayer and hold on to hope.

“I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name.” Revelation 3:8 KJV

These Words are written in red to signify that Christ is speaking. He is the One Who will set the door before us.

Beloved, stay cheerful, keep praying and obeying Him. Witness how He brings about a glorious outcome!

Author Darlene J. Conard

I resent feeling restricted in my ability to express myself freely. It creates a sense of frustration and despair, making the atmosphere miserable. The inability to openly share my thoughts and emotions takes a toll on me, leaving me feeling muted and isolated.

 After reviewing my feelings of frustration, thoughts of God began to surface. I remembered a crucial moment when He communicated directly with His prophets, guiding them with His wisdom. Eventually, a great nation arose, rooted in the promises made to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. Through Moses, the Tabernacle was established. The Holy of Holies was a place in the tent where priests offered sacrifices for sins. God was on a box but also in a box. (Exodus 31:7) The Ark of Covenant couldn’t be touched. (2 Samuel 6:1-6)

Through Jesus’s death, burial, and resurrection, we have the privilege of having Him within us. He didn’t want to be in a box anymore. He wanted to be much closer. (Matthew 1:23)

He informed me that he understood how I felt, particularly the struggle of being unable to express one’s self.

In conclusion, God didn’t want to sit on a box being limited in a tent or temple. He tried to be Himself and express Himself in more incredible ways.

I do not want to resist God or his ways. We must let God be God within us, through us, and around us.

Author Darlene J. Conard

Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22 KJV

The word cast is derived from the Hebrew word YADAH. Yadah comes from two root words. ‘Yad,’ which means the open hands posture, direction, and power, and ‘ah,’ from God’s name, Jehovah. ¹

Yadah is mentioned 114 times in the Bible. It means to worship or acknowledge, often with extended hands representing praise and gratitude. In 1 Peter 5:7, we are encouraged to cast our burdens on Him because He cares about us. There is an indescribable power in extending open hands toward heaven during overwhelming heartache.

Sheri and Jeff Easter’s song “Praise His Name” has inspired me and given me the strength to persevere through many trials. No matter what happens, keep praising Him. Even when you feel like saying, “I don’t understand!” Continue to honor Him. Position yourself to give Jesus that impossible situation. I also remind myself of this—it’s essential to invite God to work through our circumstances.

1 Samuel 30:6 says, …. “David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the Lord his God.”  David reminded himself, “God is all power! No weapon formed against me shall prosper. He will deliver the lion, giant, and bear in my hands.  He’ll do it again!”

Hebrews 12:12 is a profound call to action: “Lift those hanging hands and strengthen those buckling knees.” This verse encourages us to raise our weary arms, which may have grown heavy from the weight of struggle, and to bolster our trembling knees, which might be on the verge of giving way. It speaks to the importance of resilience and support in times of weariness and difficulty, urging us to find strength not only for ourselves but also to be a source of encouragement for others who may be faltering.

Amid an intense battle, Moses demonstrated unwavering obedience to God by lifting his rod above him. This act of faith was not simply a symbolic gesture; it had profound implications for the outcome of the conflict. As Moses raised his arms, the Israelites thrived and held their ground against the forward-moving enemy forces. However, the moment his arms began to weaken and lower, the tide of the battle shifted, and the enemy started to gain the upper hand, showcasing the direct connection between Moses’ faith and their victory. Ultimately, it was through Moses’ persistent and faithful act of raising his hands that he secured victory for his people, demonstrating the power of divine backing when one remains steadfast in trust and obedience. This story is captured in Exodus 17:11, reminding us of the strength we can find in unwavering faith during our struggles. 

By surrendering our hands to God, we allow Him to transform what the enemy intended for harm into a powerful blessing.

1 UNDERSTANDING the HEBREW WORD, “YADAHידה and TODAH תּודה” (beauty4ashesministry.com)

Author Darlene J. Conard

I sat quietly in the pew, listening intently as the new pastor opened up about his struggles navigating life’s difficulties between the flesh and the spirit. He spoke passionately about his faith journey, drawing parallels to the biblical story of Jacob wrestling with God. I admired him for being so open about his mistakes. This is someone that I see as a powerful mentor and example for God!

He reflected on the moment Jacob wrestled with physical and spiritual challenges and demanded, “What is your name?” This question resonated deeply with him, symbolizing the search for identity and understanding in the face of turmoil. The pastor’s heartfelt sincerity and raw vulnerability revealed his profound yearning for spiritual growth, echoing the deep, transformative journey that Jacob experienced in his own life. He expressed Jacob’s wrestling match brought out a side of him he didn’t know about. It transformed him. As I contended with my challenges over the past few months, I began to uncover the more profound reasons preventing me from moving forward.

“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation, and uphold me with thy free spirit.” (KJV) When we engage in the Psalm 51:10-12 prayer, we must approach it with a sense of readiness for a complete personal transformation. This prayer is not just a routine; it invites a deep cleansing of our hearts and minds. By opening ourselves up to this experience, we can trust that He will honor our commitment and guide us on this journey of renewal. Embracing this preparation allows us to grow and heal in ways we may not have imagined.

My life will never be every day because He called me into the depths of the spirit realm, which are unknown to man. The flesh cannot comprehend the things of the spirit. Don’t try breaking God down; it will not work!

We should experience deep gratitude when God uncovers the hidden facets of our lives. This revelation shows His desire to bring about positive change and transformation within us. Each revelation serves as an opportunity for growth, encouraging us to reflect on our journey and embrace the new paths He lays before us. Recognizing these moments can inspire us to evolve and become better versions of ourselves.

I pray that you fully embrace and experience God’s abundant love and grace in every area of your life, enriching your journey and bringing you peace and joy.

Author Darlene J. Conard

Throughout the narrative in the book of Job, I noticed that he frequently voiced his questions and uncertainties, expressing his struggles and seeking understanding. Uncertainty left him standing on the edge. “What has happened?” “Those I once was close to say, “I am guilty of an unforgivable sin?” At that moment in his trial, devastation was much more forceful than his faith. Solutions – none available; God hid Himself, is what he thought. He isn’t at the right, left, behind me, or in front.

Job faced a series of challenging tests that significantly impacted his reactions, causing him to respond in ways that were out of character and surprising to those around him—waiting with perseverance brought out the best in him. He looked all around himself except upward. Job learned to look up when God’s presence wasn’t so close. The inner man became stronger in Job as quickly as he knew God was on His throne, looking, watching, and waiting. 

As I take a moment to reflect on Job’s story, I find a deeper understanding of my own experiences. Throughout my life, there have been numerous instances where I lost myself—immersed in overwhelming pain, wrestling with challenging situations, and overwhelmed by frustration and anger. These emotions have pulled me in different directions, making it difficult to find my true self.

I’ve come to understand that there are times when the presence of God feels less tangible. During these emotional moments, He mirrors the actions of a mother eagle with her eaglets. When the young eagles reach a certain age, she no longer delivers their meals directly. Instead, she gently nudges them out of the safety of the nest, compelling them to spread their wings and take their first flight. It’s a moment of fear and exhilaration as they must summon their courage to soar. Meanwhile, the father eagle vigilantly watches over them, prepared to swoop in and catch them if they struggle on their way down.

When God reaches out to catch us in our moments of uncertainty, we find ourselves on a journey of discovery. God will reveal to us who we really are, but its through Him

“Being (Be) confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” Philippians 1:6 KJV