Author Darlene J. Conard

“I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings.” Jeremiah 17:10 KJV

As I close my eyes and reflect on the heart’s inner workings, I imagine a seemingly endless hallway stretching off into the distance. Along the walls are collection of doors, each leading to a different heart chamber. I sit there, still and silent, lost in thought, as I picture the many experiences, emotions, and memories that could be stored behind each one.

But I know there is a final destination that the Holy Spirit is tugging me towards. It’s a place where the heart’s many chambers are united: where God’s love and grace are revealed.

Interestingly, the Hebrew word for “reins” in this scripture denotes the very essence of a person’s being – their deepest being. It is this core of our being that God speaks to, drawing us ever closer to His perfect will.

Yet, I know all too well the bitterness that can arise from betrayal. It’s like a poison that seeps into the heart, slowly consuming until you’re left with nothing but anger and hurt. For a time, I built a wall around my heart to protect myself from being hurt again. But I soon realized that this wall was not only keeping out the pain but also the blessings that God had in store for me.

 A close friend reminded me that not everyone is out to hurt me. Spiritual walls would block me from blessings. on life’s greatest blessings by keeping that wall up. This friend has always been a guiding light, a mentor that I believe, God ordained for me.

So, I’ve learned to trust the Holy Spirit to guide me and teach me to discern what is right and just. It’s not always easy to let go of the past and embrace the future, but

Know that God’s plans for you are good and that He will never lead me astray. A heart that’s transformed by God, is pure.     

“He shall not be afraid of evil tidings: his heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord.” Psalm 112:7 KJV

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