I Shall Not Wonder

Author Darlene J. Conard

Every morning for the past several weeks I’ve awakened at 4:00 pm. My eyes were opened to a noticeable single light in the sky. Thinking that it was a satellite, I didn’t give it another thought. Its illumination made ignoring it impossible.

Shoving back the blankets, putting my feet on the floor, I went to the dresser to slip on my glasses. Silently standing in the window beside my bed I wrestled against sleep. No, it wasn’t a satellite, or a tower. For a star it’s pretty big, I thought. Even this morning I saw it until it disappeared into the dawn.

The single star reminded me of the three wise men in Matthew chapter 2. Herod deceivingly portrayed his interest in worshipping this king whom he heard of. A single star in the velvet night cast an array of God’s glory upon the Philistinian land. After stepping in the presence of Heaven’s King they knew not to return to Herod.

Christ birth isn’t a one-year event. It’s a reminder that God Himself came down to be among man who’s unworthy to free us of the debt of sin. The star surpassed the compasses of this earth.

“You’re telling me that I don’t have to wonder around aren’t you God? That although I feel uncertain which step to take next, You’ll never leave me to wonder about.” A supernatural warmth penetrated every single part of my being. Those I’ve always believed were hugs from God.

You find yourself saying, “God give me the strength to withstand long hours of this job. How am I going to get through the death of my child? How am I going to do anything?”

Well, God is faithful in all His ways!

“In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.” Psalms 138:3 KJV

“And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.” Isaiah 58:11 KJV

He will not let us wonder. Keep praying, praise Him for He is worthy, thank Him for He will answer! Emanuel still and forever will mean God with us.