Author Darlene J. Conard

I began pouring my heart out to God as I strove to win the battle over sleep. Recently, I received disturbing news. “So here we meet again familiar enemy, firing your poisoned arrows of condemnation straight at the center of my heart.”

Years ago, someone close to me blamed me for the death of their loved one. “You said, it would be alright! You said, God would heal my brother and he would be alright!” Those words didn’t belong to me. I am only a mouth piece delivering God’s promises. He doesn’t answer in the way we think He should. Yes, it was alright. Yes, God healed in a way He saw fit to do so.

Every day for me is an ongoing challenge to change in the flow of God’s structure. Deep inside of me wants nothing more than to become the Darlene God sees.

I continued reading and studying about David. Goliath wasn’t his first, but he wasn’t his last. (2 Samuel 21:15-22) Different giants, different circumstances, and different walks in life: I suppose it will aways be a challenge until God calls us home.

I heard a message once delivered by Rev. Lee Stoneking titled, Testing Our Faith. From experience I have come face to face with the same test until I got it right, in God’s way. It ends there because it no longer my contestant.

Where ever you my find yourself know that God is your keeper. You will find the closer you draw to the Lord the test is passed with a finger snap. My grandmother gave me some words of wisdom. “Darlene, you can get so lost in the presence of God. The things people say or do will not hurt you.”

 ^“Keep me as the apple of the eye, hide me under the shadow of thy wings, From the wicked that oppress me, from my deadly enemies, who compass me about.”  Psalm 17:8-9 KJV

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