Author Darlene J. Conard

Before my conversion getting personal with God, I thought, was impossible. I didn’t know His ears stayed opened listening for my voice. I didn’t know He cared that heavy tear droplets stained my pillow through the night. I didn’t know He could do the impossible such as moving on a stranger’s heart to fulfill a need only He knew about. I just didn’t know God Himself will reveal the secret things through dreams and visions. God Himself whispering in the ears of mankind? Yes, if we are opened to Him, we will hear.

Those feelings developed from being deprived, limited as a child. Oh, but once you come in contact with a glory carrier, that’s it! Someone who projects the love of Jesus shifts the atmosphere! Out of frustration with myself I ask, “Will I ever learn?” Yes, we learn through failure. We learn by watching others, not with a faulty mentality, but an open heart.

One cool afternoon I took a walk with my route taking me past the Day Care playground. A toddler with bouncing platinum curls comes running toward the security gate with his hand stretched out holding flowers. His little fingers entwined the wired gate as he stretched upward proudly with one to give me the bouquet he picked. “Fo’ ‘ewe’ ‘wady.” Innocence portrayed him well. His porcelain face, soft rosy cheeks and sparkling ocean blue eyes ministered to me.

 “Thank you, sweet heart.” My hand reached over the gate to take his sweet little, valuable gift. The fact that he chose to give them to me made me feel special to God. My friend and I often talk about God winks. This is one of them.

I yearn for a deeper experience with Him. I’ve found that every trial has a door that Jesus holds in His pocket.

If you are struggling rest assured it’s a time to get up close and personal with God.

“I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause: Which doeth great things and unsearchable; marvellous things without number: “Job 5:8-9 KJV

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