Author Darlene J. Conard

Not fully awaken I lingered in the position I fell asleep in. The song “Living Hope” flowed in my spirit like water rushing over rocks in a river. “How great is thy mercies Lord,” I whispered softly in response to His mighty presence.

Before turning in my friend and I prayed about some situations that came into our lives unexpectedly. “Why did these things have to happen to me?” Often, I ask beating myself up. Scolding myself I’ll say, “Why didn’t I just keep my distance? Why did I ignore the lesson I’ve learned before?”

My spiritual eyes were opened on somethings while trying to fall asleep last night. I’ve read about Judas, heard sermons, but hadn’t understood anything else. Yes, Judas betrayed Jesus, yes, he was a thief and the treasurer, it’s beyond that. We believed He betrayed Jesus for thirty pieces of silver. (Matthew 26:14-16) Remember the last supper? Jesus announced, “One of you will betray Me.” Sorrowfully they began asking, “Is it I?” (John 13) After sopping the bread then handing it to Jesus Satan entered in him. Jesus dismissed him. “Do what you’re going
to do quickly.” No other thought came to their mind other than Jesus giving instruction to go buy more for the Passover.

Judas was scandalous. Jesus still chose Him. He didn’t need the thirty pieces of silver. Here is the Revelation I’ve been seeking for. He skillfully fooled everyone portraying innocence. Jesus saw right through him. Judas couldn’t fool Jesus. It angered him! Somehow, he would diminish His character. He would get rid of Him somehow! Instead, Judas only fulfilled God’s will.

Countless times I’ve lend myself to helping people, prayed, had Bible Studies and lend opened ears to their struggles. Although they have known me for years suddenly treat me like I’m an enemy, accusations arose to diminish my character. “I didn’t understand until now. Thank you, Holy Ghost! When people can no longer hide things because God is revealing it Satan enters in. Quickly a plan is devised to get attention off them and on you.

“The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” John 10:10 KJV
To steal what, anything that deals with God’s goodness. He slips in unaware itemizing every weakness we have to bring destruction in our lives.

I have been thanking God for this revelation! Judas came to regret his decision. Jesus would have forgiven him.

“Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you so also do ye.”

Jesus is that living hope. His mercy thrushes deep into shame. I’m so grateful He guides and pulls us through every time!

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